Tuesday, September 15, 2009

#12. Susceptible Addict


This morning, I rummaged through boxes 
of storage stuff,in Dad's old machine shop. 
Dusting cobwebs, sorting through stacks
of my Boxes, I discovered the 45" Loom, 
my Son's Father and I bought in Mexico. 

We hauled it home from San Miguel, atop 
our VW BUG, that was being towed home 
behind our old green and white VW Van. 
I have never used it, but plan to, someday. 
Is this actually a true statement, I wonder? 
Or am I just holding on to the remnant of 
a past vision that may never become true? 

Why is it so hard to let go of our Dreams? 

At the turn of the millennium, my World, 
as I had known it, collapsed in on itself 
like a Black Hole. The option to move  
into my childhood home, with parents, 
arose, so I closed my eyes and jumped  
back in time,  to eventually transform. 

At times it's difficult to see lessons we
are to learn, to explore the silver lining.
As tough a it has been, I will never regret 
those special years spent with my Father, 
during his last days, before his passing, 
and good days with Mom in her garden. 

Sometimes our self-created World is 
turned upside down, so we can see 
another point of view or perspective 
to shift chronic Addictive Behavior. 

During this time, I was forced to let go of 
my attachment to my precious Self-Image. 
My identification with being a  Teacher. 
Artist, Healer, Counselor was shattered. 
I had to change, grow, expand to evolve. 

My love of Mothering and of Caregiving 
was how I received acknowledgment, a  
feeling of Self-Worth, a sense of value.  
With professional Guidance, an out-dated 
belief system was creatively transformed. 

Life is now about being in the moment, 
expressing Gratitude for what shows up. 
I no longer feel the drive for achievement, 
nor do I feel the need, to prove anything to 
anyone but myself, if I desire a challenge. 
Human Beingness trumps Doingness. 

Are you ready to break-free from old 
chronic Obsessive Thought Patterns, 
like ancestral Family Worry Patterns? 
How much repetitive suffering is enough? 

Misery Loves Company, so  surround your 
Self with healthy Souls who have a positive 
effect on who they connect with in Life. 

Trusting in a person who is Addicted to 
anything, is careless, wishful thinking, 
because they can't trust themselves. 

"Falling in Love with Potential", can be 
disastrous, as another cannot be changed, 
despite our well intentioned sacrifices. 
We can learn to Love Unconditionally, 
from a safe distance, which allows us to 
embody responsibility for our own Health,
Abundance, growing State of Well Being

Self-Love means saying and meaning NO!
Self-Respect requires Self-Acceptance.
Self-Reliance
requires Health Boundaries.
Self-Awareness
allows Life to be as it is.  


Qi flows naturally with ease and fluidity 
along the pathways of least resistance. 
Developing practices such as  Aikido, 
Tai Chi, Qi Gong, help cultivate Peace.

by m/s.sage 

Tuesday, 9-15-09 

Re-write, 9-23-15 
( Autumn Equinox )

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