#12. Susceptible Addict

I spent the morning going through boxes of my
Stuff in storage, in what was my Father's Shop.
Clearing away cobwebs and sorting thru stacks
of Dusty Boxes, I discovered a 45" Weaving
Loom, my Son's Father and I hauled back from
Mexico, atop our trusty, tan VW BUG, in tow
behind our beloved green and white, VW Van.

I have never used it, but I plan to, someday.
Why is it so hard to let go of our Dreams ???

Sometimes our self-created World is turned
upside down, so we can free ourselves from
an Obsessive Thought Pattern or Repetitive
Dysfunctional Behavior that is sabotaging us.

My entire World as I knew it, collapsed in on
itself like a Black Hole, because I needed to
let go of my attachment to my Self-Image
to grow and expand in Sacred Consciousness.
My identification with being Artist, Teacher,
Healer, was shattered and I had to change.

My dependency on Mothering and Caregiving
for receiving acknowledgment and Self-Worth,
were, with Guidance, creatively transformed.

Life is now more about being in the moment
and expressing Gratitude for what shows up.
I no longer feel the drive for achievement,
nor do I feel the need, to prove anything to
anyone but myself, if I desire the challenge.
Human Beingness trumps Human Doingness.

Are you ready to break-free from some chronic
Obsessive Thoughts / Familial Worry Patterns?
How much repetitive painful suffering is enough?

Misery Loves Company. Surrounding ourselves
with Souls who have Similar Patterns, increases
problematic situations, making it harder to change.

Trusting in a person who is Addicted to anything, is
careless thinking. They can't even trust themselves.

"Falling in Love with Potential", can be disasterous,
as another cannot be changed, no matter how well
intentioned our sacrificial attempts are. We can
learn to Love them Unconditionally, from a safe
distance. This allows us to embody responsibility
for our own precious, vital Health and Well Being.

Self-Love requires saying NO! and really meaning it.
Self-Respect requires devotional Self-Acceptance.
Self-Reliance requires flexible Health Boundaries.
Self-Awareness allows Life to be as it is. Qi flows
naturally with ease and fluidity without resistance.
Aikido, Tai Chi, Qi Gong, help us practice Peace.