Creative Soul Questing

#21. Planetary Partners / World

2009-09-24T17:32:00.000-07:00

"Beyond the Threshold of Consciousness, lies the
Infinite Heart of the awaiting Dream. To touch that
Sacred Part of the Mystery, is to know the Eternal
Aspects of BEING." Joaquin Muriel Espinosa

" With the lifting of the Final Veil, I embrace the
Wonders that can BE, the weave of Divine Creation,
expands the Universe inside of me. " Jamie Sams

Completing an 8 Year Cycle, I take time to reflect on
projects completed / initiations passed. Each choice
that I make, seeds Harmonics / Resonant Tones, for
new levels of self-discovery beyond comfort-zones.

It is time for releasing what no longer is relevant in the
Blueprint of my Life & to make Plans to travel beyond
the well-worn terrain of my own self-imposed limitations.

Severing the ties that bind me to all past cycles of Family
Obligation & to all that is less than my Divine Plan fulfilled,
I Stand Tall within the Highest Healing Frequency / Fields
of my Lucid Dreams, Meditations & Creative Visualizations.

With care & consideration, my Cosmic Slate is wiped clean.
Understanding the Universal Language of Love, I now share
my life experience, skills / talents, & intuitive wisdom with
those Souls who truly see me & are ready to listen and hear.
The right, reliable, emission free, vehicle for transporting me
into New Cycles of working/ playing & teaching /consulting
has manifested itself easily, providing me with new Freedom.

Creative Soul-Kin vibrating in Harmony with the Truth of Who
I AM, magnetize to me, for collaboration w/Sacred Community.
My Twin Flame recognizes, accepts & nurtures my Heart Fire.
We travel easily & abundantly offering workshops, for healing.
Family & Friends love, support and celebrate our Spiritual Union.
Our Home Base is within conscious eco-friendly community, in an
aesthetic, healthy environment near clean, clear flowing Water.
Laughter, Joy, Movement, Art, Music, Sacred Celebration, Nature,
My Son, Grandchildren, Animals & Family, grace our Life Tapestry.
As Planetary Partners, we balance each others Dance perfectly.

Within every Ending is a new Beginning. With Alpha / Omega,
I stand in the Sacred Nexus, within the Holy Crossroads of each
moment, honing / tempering tools for Birthing Life's Creations.

As Sunrise / Sunset, Particle / Wave, Night / Day, I am a unique
expression of GOD / Geometry of Divinity... GOD =LOVE / I AM.

#20. Emissary of Truth / Aeon

2009-09-23T13:57:00.000-07:00

"The balancing act of Respecting your Boundaries &
Recognizing where People are in their development
is an initiating Coyote Lesson.... Recognizing where
they are in the moment, rather than focusing on all
their Potential, is a valuable personal lesson." J. Sams

Living in integrity, as an Emissary of Truth, requires
a Soul Questar to "Walk the Talk" with Discernment
& Humility. With keen observation skills & patience,
we can see thru Deception, see Others True Intentions.
This requires us to "Live in the Moment", as we respond
to Life's evolving, initiating events/ challenging situations.

Embodying Harmony requires Soul Questars to fully Master
Dance of Polarity & Inner / Outer Conflict. Raising energy
to Higher Frequencies, resonant with the Divine Beloved,
is a healing third point of reference, integrating lessons.

Acknowledging true Sacred Essence, within Self & Others,
honors Creative Chemistry / Spiritual Alchemy within
relationships, transforming blocks to Soul Development.

Trusting Intuitive inner-Guidance, invokes the Courage
necessary to Disappoint others to be true to Chosen Path.

Embodying Confidence to put envisioned plans into action,
separates the Thinkers / Dreamers, from Movers / Shakers.

Balancing Work & Play, Individual Needs / Desires with
Family Commitment / Responsibilities, we create Peace.

Forgiving Ourselves & Others for Past mistakes, injustice,
allows us all to heal & to move forward with momentum.

Surrendering need for Control, into attitude of Acceptance,
transforms our pain from chronic Worry & Fear, into Well being.

Acknowledging the Angelic Presence of our Spirits, opening to
this Human experience, we transcend all obstacles to Ascension.

#19. Sun Dancer

2009-09-22T10:10:00.000-07:00

The greenery in my environment is soaking up the
Morning Sunshine, as it filters thru green sheers.
Sunbeams illuminate the clutter on my Art Table,
revealing the need for sorting & re-organization.
A Clock with the wrong time, an empty Starbucks
Cup with a straw, piles of Books, binders, papers,
speak my name, demanding some future attention.

Sunlight is necessary for Life to thrive on Earth.
It re-awakens us in the morning, & balances our
Serotonin levels. Just ten to fifteen minutes of
morning or late afternoon exposure to the Sun
provides us with the best & only natural source
of Vitamin D. Our society is currently the first
to be living with vitamin D deficiency, from a
lack of exposure to Sunlight, Life Force Energy.

The astrological symbol for the Sun, represents
our Identity. Depending in what House it arises
in at time of our Birth, it determines Life Path.
Sunlight is soothing, warming & regenerative.
It inspires & motivates us to arise & initiate action
with its dynamic, energizing magnetic, properties.

In the Chinese I-Ching, the Sun represents the
Divine Masculine, universal Creative Light
Source / Force, which compliments & dances
with the Divine Feminine, receptive Darkness.
Together these energies, work, & play, giving
birth to Spiritual teamwork / Soul collaboration.

Accessing the energy of the Sun through Creative
Visualization & Meditation, can offer inspiration,
to those who are unable to visit the great outdoors.
Energizing & aligning one's Spiritual Intentions with
Sunlight, can bring abundance as productive results.

Being a Creative Nocturnal Soul, daily walks with
my Dog, Bear, prior to Sunset, at Dusk, with Light
filtering through Trees, is joyous meditation for me.
I especially love the transition months at Equinoxes.
Today is Autumn Equinox & the Light is beautiful.
It is time to gather with friends in celebration and
offer prayers of gratitude for the Sun's blessings.

Standing or sitting in Solitude, communing with Sol
/ Soul in Nature, I open to receive warm, healing
rays on face, third eye, heart, throat, crown & belly.
Energy shifts, transforming Sadness to Acceptance.

Individuals with Depression, benefit from Sun exposure
which stabilizes their mood swings. Avoiding individuals
who deplete and drain vital energies, is wise practice.
Communing with our beloved Great Golden Fire God,
on a northern Golden Bluffed Beach, near Fern Canyon,
I was inspired to write a Song honoring our Father Sun.

(One verse of song below)

" Great Golden Fire God,
Blaze forth your Light to the Sea.
Great Golden Sun's Maiden,
Blaze forth your colors so Free.

Where will you be as
I'm Dreaming, seeking,
And calling your name?

Blaze forth your Trail,
I will follow your Tail / Tale,
As a Bird, As a Song
in the Wind. "

m/s.sage 1985

#18. Mystic Moon

2009-09-21T16:15:00.000-07:00

Lucid Dream-Tides find me, swimming with the Dolphins,
in Full Moonlight, in turquoise Oceans of my Imagination.
Soothing Doubts and Fears with warm sacred waters, I sail
easily through Shadowy Initiations. Moving within rhythm
of my Heartbeat, I pulse with Wisdom of the Receptive
Divine Feminine and her inner-Masculine compliment.

My inner-Worlds are alive with Mystery, attracting to me,
intriguing, creative, musical, intelligent, aware, abundant,
honest, devoted, healthy, spiritual others, for relationship.
My Soul Mate finds me easily, in unexplored depths of the
Dreamtime and Subconscious Psychological States of Being.
With keen Night Vision, I see through all Romantic Illusions
of Love, and disengage from all that is less than my Essence.
My Choices are now aligned, with what supports well being.

Anubis, a Greek Guardian, Half Man/Half Jackal, stands near
thresholds of my subconscious realms, along with a Cerberus,
Egyptian three-headed Dog Deity, who appears in my paintings.
Both act as mediators for Souls traveling into the vast unknown,
realms of the Dreamtime &/or Crossing Over into the Afterlife.
Being a Hypnotherapist, interested in Past Lives, it's no surprise
that Ghost Whisperer & Medium are on my list for TV viewing.

As a Pisces / Aries, my Water and Fire unite creating steam/mist,
akin to what Alchemists call the Dragon's Breath. Within realms
of the Imagination, there are Earth, Air, Water & Fire Dragons.
I added Wood Dragon to align with elements of Chinese Medicine.
Water Dragon is related to Depth of Passionate Connections.
It brings what is hidden, as Memories/Dreams to Light of Day.
Mastering all Emotion, it channels Mystical Wisdom & Compassion.

Fire Dragon concerns itself with Focusing & Transmuting Energy.
It lends vitality & courage to face & overcome obstacles/problems.
Mastering Passionate Leadership, it transforms Anger. Channeling
intensity, it helps Soul Questars garner energy to complete tasks.

The Moon is in the sign of Scorpio today, Trine Mars at 7:16 am &
square Jupiter at 9:03 am, lending expansive energy, for insightful
Self-motivation. Scorpio Moon inspires time for Healing Retreat,
Inner-Reflection & Planning Strategies for resolving Life's challenges.

Sensual appetites/addictions can be activated, so its good to avoid
manipulative controlling others. Seek out loving professional support.
Incubate a Lucid Dream tonight, by asking for clear messages /signs.
See you in Dreamtime Realms beloved, creative Twittering Twibes.

#17. Guiding Light / Star of Hope

2009-09-20T20:15:00.000-07:00

Awakening from a Dream, I sat upright in bed to see
Venus's Hopeful Light shining through my southern,
upstairs, bedroom window. Veiled in a light Mist,
her loving presence Radiates Hope into the Night,
inspiring me, to light a candle for Grandson's w/flu.

" The Star reminds us that each of us is an Opening
for Light, a Gateway through which the Absolute
can Manifest." Heidegger /Arrien

Three Stars burned brightly this afternoon, during a
birthday celebration for my Aunt / Cousin & Brother.
Family & Friends gathered at local Mexican Restaurant
decked out with flowers & bright balloons. Enjoying
Carrot Soup & Mojo de Ajo (Garlic Shrimp), the entire
Mexican Restaurant joins us in singing Happy Birthday!

Sunlight blesses my Son, as he mounts newly acquired
motorcycle,driving off into yet defined Life he is now
creating for himself & for his Children. To quell the Fear
creeping up inside of me, I embrace Hope for his unfolding
Future. Visualizing Arc Angel Michael's Blue Light around
him, I return to breath of present moment & drive home.

Being vulnerable, takes willingness to hang out in strange
terrain, in "I Don't Know" mode. Sometimes, I don't know
what to do/say..." I don't know how I feel "... where to go..
to find me, in the midst of the recycling chaos of others.
Then, God/ess says, "Sit bum down, go within, see Truth."

Trusting " I have done enough " to prepare Child for future
initiations, demands I believe " I AM Enough", just as I Am.
Surrendering desire, to control possible outcomes, requires
Faith in Divine Guidance & Trust in Higher Plan at work.
"All I can do is Pray".....is the answer to a vaster question.

My visualization of Jesus petting Bunny in Lighthouse while
storm rages outside, Son in Ship being tossed around, reminds
to me to be Beacon of Light, for him to find his way home.

Post mid-day Feast, relaxing, I enjoy a PBS film about the Life
of Georgia O'keefe & her initiating Soul Mate, Alfred Stieglitz,
who recognizes her potential Artistic Genius & helps it Shine.

Their Love for each other is genuine, yet this intense initiation
almost costs the artist, her Life because of her mates inability to
control his need for admiration from Other Women. After intense
emotional breakdown, she finds solitude for healing, in New Mexico.
The glorious, Nurturing Light, is what she needs, to expand her own
Radiance. Art & Nature, help her embody her true Creative Spirit.

As I sat down to write this Blog about "The Star" synergistically the
Academy Awards began broadcasting on my television. A host of
bright Talented Souls, unite / radiate collectively as audience,
within glittering auditorium. On stage, Neil Patrick Harris grins
effortlessly from ear to ear. He is adorned in Angelic White
Duds with classy black bow tie! What a motivating example
of confidence & self-esteem. One can imagine Halo /Wings!

Sarah McLachlan's ethereal voice sings reverent salute to
gifted, Departed Souls, shining now as Heavenly Bodies.
Enter Michael J. Fox, a living, breathing Way-Shower of
Patience, Hope, Determination & Love in Action on Earth.
Our generation has been blessed with our share of Icons.

We as Soul Questars, channel luminous Divine Light, as we
continue to do Pioneering Healing Work on ourselves, in
our Relationships & for our beloved Planetary Mother, Gaia.

Blessed as Peacemakers, we now embody Heaven on Earth.
Mother Gaia & Father Geo unite. Creative Passion Shines.

#16. Towering Vortex / Tower

2009-09-19T11:27:00.000-07:00

The Day began as every other Day. The Sun rose,
People had breakfast, headed off to do their work,
or settled in with their Children and piles of laundry.
Birds were singing, Dogs were barking, Cats yawned.

Then as choreographed, the events of 9/11 unfolded,
shocking, horrifying, and awakening the distracted,
sleeping consciousness of our beloved US of America.
The implications of this one event, have challenged
the core of our belief structures, shattered illusions
of safety, and our reliance on government protection.
This has been our present generation's Wake-Up-Call.

Awakening within us all is a Personal / PlanetaryTruth,
that is restoring expression, in community in new ways.
All old structures without integrity, are disintegrating,
either naturally or shamefully. Like a Snake shedding
its skin, the fabric of who we are individually and
collectively, is now being shed. We feel vulnerable,
exposed, while enduring initiating transformation.

After personally emerging from a "Valley of Death",
I am now faced with the "Earthquake" of my Son's
Divorce. All involved , including his two Children,
are trying to secure footing, on shifting grounds.

Belief structures about Family, Marriage, Commitment,
Parenthood, Personal Health & Happiness are now being
examined, priorities re-arranged, to create new Lives.
Who are we becoming, in relationship to each other?

New Pathways are being forged. We are heading into
unknown, undefined, unexplored, personal territories,
tempting us, to surrender our inner-strength to FEAR.

As literal and metaphorical Towers become Vortexes,
the fabric of our FAITH is tested. TRUSTING in ourselves,
and each other's Process takes Courage. Remaining open
to /asking for Divine Guidance, can help us move forward.
Unconditional Acceptance, heals the wounds within our Past.
Embodying Wisdom with Integrity, our Love seeds eternity.

"And lend your Voices only
To sounds of Freedom..

No longer lend your Strength,
To that which you wish
To be Free from..

Fill your Lives
With Love & Bravery,
And you shall lead
A Life Uncommon." Jewel

#15. Lord Pan / Devil

2009-09-18T11:33:00.000-07:00

"It is in our capacity to follow our Bliss, and to execute
the Discipline, to bring into form our Creative Visions,
with mirth and tangible results..If we take our problems,
Be-Devil-ments too seriously, they can ensnare us and
take us off balance... Devil spelled backward, is Lived..."

"With Vision and Intuition, we can protect ourselves
from other People's considerations about what we are
doing or not doing in our lives." ( Angeles Arrien )

The Archetype of the Devil has evolved over time. In
ancient Greece, Lord Pan was the God of celebration
merriment and sensual pleasures, attuned with animal
Instincts and Nature. His image = Half Man/Half Goat.
Sure footed and silly as Goat, also Human Visionary,
Capricorn and Saturn were his main influencing rulers.

The lessons that are offered from our inner-Lord Pan,
involve learning to enjoy Earthly Pleasures while setting
and respecting healthy Limits and Boundaries w/ others.
Being intuitive and following what attracts us into new
experiences, situations, relationships, environments for
learning Life lessons while, sensing the danger of falling
into old patterns of Addictive Behavior is our challenge.
How do we stay true to our Vision / Dreams and remain
present / responsive/ non-reactive to those around us?

I recently learned that Saturn's Rings are made of ice.
Scientists are discovering that most Planets have Rings.
Planet Earth is the only Planet with a man-made Ring
composed of mechanical technology, now controlled by
the unenlightened / uninitiated. Our vital atmosphere
is becoming a dangerously crowded, metal junk yard.

The challenge for our generation and the next, is to find
ways to educate ourselves / our children / grandchildren,
about how to navigate through this Mind Field of streaming
information, enjoy the positive (amusing /learning/ healing )
and establish effective, pro-active safe guards from primarily
negative (violent /sexual) broadcasting networks w/adjendas.

Mother Theresa once expressed she was not interested in
resisting, taking a stand against something, but show her a
cause to stand for, and she would be there in a Heartbeat.

The beauty of Life on Planet Earth is that it is our choice.
Do we distract, indulge and numb ourselves out with all the
new advances in technology, or do we choose to use it as
sacred tool for evolving humanity, while having some Fun?

#14. Visionary Artisans / Temperance

2009-09-17T12:10:00.000-07:00

Every Night, my Mother makes a list of challenges,
then dutifully crosses off each chore, as she sees it
through to completion, the next Day. Without her
list, she walks in Circles, much like a Dog chasing
it's own tail out of boredom. ( Mom is a Scorpio.)

I ( as a Pisces / Aries), do not make lists, I intuit.
Yet, I cannot judge Mother for this, for I would only
be judging my own conditioned Work Ethic, which
assists me in focusing, to write this Blog each day.

Nurturing Spirit/Soul (outside church) wasn't a part
of her generation's Fear-Based Thought Processes.
What is missing from this regimen, is time allowed
for Spontaneous Play, Joy, Laughter, Synergy,
Light-Hearted Creative Exploration with others.

Thank God/ess for my Son /Grandchildren & Dog,
who interrupt my seriousness with joyous smiles,
spontaneous play in the Zen of Life, by just Being.
Gratitude for all the Twittering Souls who uplift
a unique vibrational orchestration of thoughts and
ideas, sending them out into Universe with Love.
Divine Creator is a-mused and smiling with us all.

When I lay in bed at Night, instead of making lists,
an Imaginary Window opens in my Mind, allowing
a cool breeze to cleanse my thoughts, of the Day.
To Set the Tone for my next Day, I focus attention
on an Emotional Quality, a State of Being. I see in
my Mind's Eye, my work accomplished and conflicts
resolved, in harmony. I Visualize myself feeling calm,
present with what shows up in my Life. At the same
time, I Imagine myself as assertive, moving forward,
being a positive, healing force in the greater World.

Temperance, (Sagittarius) is about discovering
new creative ways to integrate and synthesize
opposite perspectives within polarized thinking.
We need to exercise both Right and Left Brain.
Masculine /Active ~ Feminine /Receptive energies
exist within us all, and they seek balance/harmony.

As Visionary Artisans, we have an opportunity
to be both Particle / Wave. Transcending Time,
we soon learn to shift awareness easily between
many States of Being /Levels of Consciousness.

Empowered with Divine Guidance / Divine Will,
we can remain strong, grounded, Rooted in Truth,
when needed, and also surrender to the Flow of the
Collective Consciousness of planetary Mother Gaia.

#13. Wounded Healer / Chiron

2009-09-16T10:56:00.000-07:00

Chiron represents the inner- Cargiving / Healer who
is so focused on healing others, neglects healing Self.

He was the King of all Centaurs, in Greek Mythology.
He studied Medicine with Apollo and became a Healer.
Being immortal, he could not die, so when he was shot
with a poisoned arrow from an old student, Heracles,
he roamed the Earth in agony. Ultimately, he could
Heal others but not himself, until he met Prometheus,
who he gifted his immortality, thereby mortally dying.
Zeus took favor upon him, granted him 2nd immortality.
He roams the night sky as the constellation Sagittarius.

My X-Husband and Father to my Son, is a Sagittarius.
We connected thru Art, Travel, Family and Spirituality.
After an enriching 8 years together, we divorced but
we remain good friends, co-parents and grand- parents.
Post-Divorce, as many X-Couples, we both wandered
the Planet as gifted, Wounded Healers for many years,
" Adept at helping others, unable to heal own Hearts".

Listening to his inner-Muse, he moved to Montana and
finding solace there, has created a new Life for himself.
Featured in an Art Magazine, his Watercolors of the rural
countryside, grace the walls of many local Art Galleries.
Enduring the Death of a Relationship, we individually
and collectively "transformed our pain" through our Art.

It is said that Souls Cross Over in threes, which seemed
to be the case with my Father and two very close Uncles.
This was the culminating crash, of a huge Tsunami Wave
of Loss, involving the passing of my First Love, his best
friend's Mother & Father (who helped raise him), a close
Spirit Sister's Mother who shared my birthday, Chandra
Levy (daughter of a Spirit Sister), 2 Cousins, 2 of my
Favorite Mentors, Laci /Conner Peterson, (daughter
/grandson of my Girlfriend from High School), Kate
Hepburn ( a heroine), Christopher/ Dana Reeve, and
my beloved, Blue Eyed, Canine Companion, Winter.

Accepting the Fate of Ending Cycles, requires Courage.
Faith Lights our Way into the Underworld, where we
Grieve our Losses / Transform our Fear of Mortality.

Spending time alone in Nature, allows the Questing Soul
to Let Go of resistance, renew vital energies in warming
Springs and /or cooling Waters of Mother Earth's Womb.

Surrendering to Sacred Timing /Great Spirit's Divine Will,
we emerge from Hermitage, humbled, Stronger and Wiser
as we prepare for the evolving, magical, Rebirth of Life.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
( Dedicated to Michael Jackson, Farrah Faucet, Patrick
Swayze and all who have recently made their transition.)

#12. Susceptible Addict

2009-09-15T15:39:00.000-07:00

I spent the morning going through boxes of my
Stuff in storage, in what was my Father's Shop.
Clearing away cobwebs and sorting thru stacks
of Dusty Boxes, I discovered a 45" Weaving
Loom, my Son's Father and I hauled back from
Mexico, atop our trusty, tan VW BUG, in tow
behind our beloved green and white, VW Van.

I have never used it, but I plan to, someday.
Why is it so hard to let go of our Dreams ???

Sometimes our self-created World is turned
upside down, so we can free ourselves from
an Obsessive Thought Pattern or Repetitive
Dysfunctional Behavior that is sabotaging us.

My entire World as I knew it, collapsed in on
itself like a Black Hole, because I needed to
let go of my attachment to my Self-Image
to grow and expand in Sacred Consciousness.
My identification with being Artist, Teacher,
Healer, was shattered and I had to change.

My dependency on Mothering and Caregiving
for receiving acknowledgment and Self-Worth,
were, with Guidance, creatively transformed.

Life is now more about being in the moment
and expressing Gratitude for what shows up.
I no longer feel the drive for achievement,
nor do I feel the need, to prove anything to
anyone but myself, if I desire the challenge.
Human Beingness trumps Human Doingness.

Are you ready to break-free from some chronic
Obsessive Thoughts / Familial Worry Patterns?
How much repetitive painful suffering is enough?

Misery Loves Company. Surrounding ourselves
with Souls who have Similar Patterns, increases
problematic situations, making it harder to change.

Trusting in a person who is Addicted to anything, is
careless thinking. They can't even trust themselves.

"Falling in Love with Potential", can be disasterous,
as another cannot be changed, no matter how well
intentioned our sacrificial attempts are. We can
learn to Love them Unconditionally, from a safe
distance. This allows us to embody responsibility
for our own precious, vital Health and Well Being.

Self-Love requires saying NO! and really meaning it.
Self-Respect requires devotional Self-Acceptance.
Self-Reliance requires flexible Health Boundaries.
Self-Awareness allows Life to be as it is. Qi flows
naturally with ease and fluidity without resistance.
Aikido, Tai Chi, Qi Gong, help us practice Peace.

#11. Trial by Fire / Strength / Lust

2009-09-14T10:25:00.000-07:00

Initiations of Fire Element "Trials by Fire",
can be literal or metaphorical. Fire in its positive
state can be warming, nurturing, illuminating, and
healing. Uncontrolled Fire results in Addictions,
(sexual especially), Loss, Death and/or Destruction.

In the movie, "The Tango Lesson", individuals
who share attraction and passion for dancing Tango,
sublimate Sexual Tensions into Creative Expression.
The story of Daniel/Lion are used as a Metaphore
for Raising Passion into Higher Awareness Centers.

With no outlets for transforming intense Passion,
inner-Volcanoes can smolder, to let off steam or
erupt violently by surprise, resulting in damage.
This principle is true of any Suppressed Emotions.
I have witnessed Unexpressed Anger between two
people ignite actual Fire; one time, at a table
they were dining at, in a mellow, local restaurant.

Incidents involving Fire can also be a sign that
lessons have been learned and now Vibrations
are being raised to Higher Levels of Spiritual
Awareness /Consciousness. Jamie Sams in her
book, "Dancing the Dream", discusses the
"Below" direction on the Medicine Wheel
and a need to Ground Higher Vibrations
we receive. Ungrounded Energy can blow out,
inner / outer - electrical circuts, causing
excessive heat and eventual consuming flames.

During a particular Cycle of Loss in my Life,
as Energies Raised with me, I found it difficult
to Ground the growing intensity of Energy.
Fires began Igniting around me. Within a
short period of time, I lost my Home & Office,
my Storage Facility caught on fire, my beloved
Toyota Van burst into flames with me/dog
in it (saved by Angelic passer by), a microwave
at Moms blew up, hot tub thermostat got stuck
on high and burned up heating unit, on and on...

Returning to Movement Psychology Roots,
I began to practice Qi Gong /Yoga daily, and
learned to channel the increasing Spiritual
Vibrations, to transform my own Life Path.

"As we develop the ability to work with Energy
streaming thru Bodies, symptoms as pain,
disorientation or "power surges" can occur, prior
to "turning points" / "illuminating breakthroughs".

"Embodying a neutral third aspect, a Zero Point
of Awareness, free from judgment / criticism and
resolving inner-Duality, we can walk a Balanced
Path within our Hearts, Minds, Bodies, and Dreams."

...........( Jamie Sams- Dancing the Dream )...........
.....( Gregg Braden- Awakening to Zero Point ).....

#10. Spinning Wheel

2009-09-13T12:35:00.000-07:00

" And the Seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down ...
We're captive on the carousel of Time.

We can't return we can only look
Behind from where we came ...
And go round and round and round
In the Circle Game ." Joni Mitchell

Harvesting, washing and juicing fresh tomatoes this morning
with my Sister-in-law, I am reminded how Seasons Change.
During early Spring, we planted seeds, watched them sprout
then transplanted the seedlings into rich, fertile Valley Soil.
We hummed patiently with the Bees pollinating the blossoms.

With Summer, fruit and vegetables began to swell and grow.
Giant Pumpkins await their fate, as Indian Summer wanes,
giving rise to the Fall Festivities and Harvest Celebrations.
Fresh tomato sauce, with basil, now simmers on the stove.
The heavenly aroma fills our senses and make house/home.
The garden will decompose, remain dormant thru Winter.

We live in a perpetually expanding, Abundant Universe.
Change, is a natural constant of Life. Why do we resist?

While on pilgrimage in Mexico, praying in Mayan Temples,
We entered the Tomb of the Grandmother's. I had a vision of
women weaving the warp and weft of Life in Dreamtime.
Visiting the Tomb of Pacal Votan, we observed the glyphs on
his sarcophagus, and the Mayan Calendar, ending in 2012.

According to many Indigenous Tribes around the World, we
are living within a very unique time in our Planets History.
On December 21st 2012, our Sun moves into alignment
with the Central Sun of our Galaxy and is Eclipsed. This
event marks the ending, of a 2,000 year Galactic Cycle.
Prophecy states, "Time as we know it" will cease to exist.

Life Cycles Begin and End, giving birth to New Cycles.
May we be blessed with Love, Light, Wisdom, Protection,
Abundance and Peace as Sacred Wheel Spins Round.

May we embrace, practice and share, great acts of Faith.
Approaching the threshold of a vast, expanding Unknown
with unexplored territories in Science, Technology, Education,
and the Arts, may we remain rooted deeply in Spirituality.

#9. Holy Initiate / Hermit

2009-09-12T11:49:00.000-07:00

Thunderstorms in the Valley today. Time to Retreat
indoors and reflect on Indian Summer's rapid passing.
09/09/09 has come and gone, demarcating completion,
09/11/09 recycled for vital healing and commemoration.

Cerberus, a Triple Headed Jackal, stands Guard at the
entrance to the Underworld of Subconscious / Dreams.
Soul Questars are required to stop and rest before we
Journey within, to face Personal Shadows /unresolved
issues. Native American Sun Dancers, enact this process
of Soul Recovery, to liberate Light from within Darkness.

For the Past 11 Years, my initiations, as Holy Initiate,
have involved many levels of material and personal Loss.
The beginning of this Challenging Cycle began in 1998,
which I will address in another post, 11. "Trials by Fire".
An 8 year Cycle within a Cycle, has required me to stand
at the threshold, then walk through the "Valley of Death".
Which I will share in Post #13. Wounded Healer /Chiron.

The Blueprint for all Endings, is inherent in all Beginnings.
Seeds for all Beginnings, gestate and sprout within Endings.
Luminous Stars in Galaxies are born, Shine their Light, Die,
creating Black Holes which gestate new Stars and Galaxies.
Light / Dark, Male / Female, Life / Death are essential
elements for evolving Souls, Communities, Universes.

We are conceived of Mother and Father. We are Born from
our Mother's Wombs. We experience Childhood, Adolescence,
Adulthood, Mid-Life, and Elderhood. In the Beginning, like the
Archetype of the Fool / Soul Questar, our resilient Hearts are
spontaneous, playful, curious and open to give/receiving Love.
"Life happens as we are busy making other plans." It is how
we respond to Life Situations that reveals levels of Mastery.
Do we grow old resentful and unfulfilled or joyfully resolved.

At this point in our Journey, we orchestrate time to reflect on
our Sojourns. We are the Writer, Director, Actor and Producer
of our own Sacred Earth Play. Following inner-Guidance, we
can find the Golden Thread of Truth that leads us Home.

#8. Divine Adjustment

2009-09-11T11:38:00.000-07:00

Honoring my word and commitments is important to me.
Attuned with the Indigo Children, I can sense dishonesty.
Witnessing or experiencing injustice, pushes my buttons.
Individuals/Groups that intentionally manipulate for gain,
not only hurt others and Gaia, they also hurt themselves.
What goes around...Comes around, around, and around.

Sitting in Court, listening to distraught parties tell their
own stories, is a lesson in how both parties feel right.
Feeing wronged, reacting in Fear, issues unresolved,
they now sit in front of the Judge, pleading their case.

Each point of view being valid, relative and subjective,
the Honorable Justice of the Peace, resides on a bench,
or retires to a chambers, to evaluate the situation with
Attorneys and Mediators. Is Justice always served?
And at what point to we appeal to a Higher Power?
How well do we Balance objective/subjective reality?

Quantum Physics has proven that the energy of Observer,
influences the outcome of the experiment being performed.
Recently statements made by Sonia Sotomayor raised the
question, of the ability of Humans, to be truly Objective.
Is it truly possible to suspend the imprints from our family,
culture, gender, education, social status, religious beliefs?

Sometimes we become so identified with our experience,
our story, our pain/joy/etc, that we loose clarity of vision.
We fail to see the bigger picture and how all is inter-related.
"I Am You and You are Me, and We are all Together." Beatles

Imagine...Imagine...Imagine...Embody Justice. Pray Peace.

#7. Transcendent Vehicles / Chariot

2009-09-10T16:13:00.000-07:00

Finding Stillness in Movement / Movement in
Stillness is a daily / hourly / moment to moment
practice. One has to be in motion, to find the
Stillness within Rhythmic Flow. Remaining Still,
while focusing inward, one can find Movement
by following the Breath and Flow of Thoughts.

Sitting in Lotus, visualizing inner- Male and
inner- Female facing each other, can give rise
to balancing vital energies up thru the Chakras.

Horses running while sharing a Harness, entrain
with one another's Rhythm. As one Gesture,
they move efficiently in a Single Direction.

When an "A" String is plucked on one Guitar,
a nearby Guitar's "A" String, vibrates in what
is describes as "Harmonic Resonance".

"Soul Mates" intuitively recognize each other and
by Synchronizing Energies, spontaneously unite
as Spiritual Partners with Global Consciousness.

Communicating with a Spirit Sister at lunch
today, we were discussing how some People
enter Life/ Environments/ Relationships/ etc,
Aware of Similarities /what's Right, while others
Focus on Differences and what is Wrong /Lacking.

Many of our Perceptions are conditioned from
our Family of Origin/Society, others are learned.
Children do as they see us do, not as we say.

Loving Energy, expands and grows in intensity,
expressing as Passion, Creativity, and Innovation.
Fearful Energy contracts, separates, destroys.

Our World is made up of dancing Polarized Particles.
Finding Healthy Common Ground / Holistic Resolutions
for transforming Gaia's current challenges, is a Choice.

The Attitude with which we approach Life's Situations
and the integrity of our personal intentions, define us as,
either Conflicted, or Transcendent Vehicles for Change.

#6. Choices in Love

2009-09-09T13:53:00.000-07:00

"...When two people are at one in their inmost hearts,
they shatter even the strength of iron or bronze; and
when two people understand each other in their inmost
hearts, their worlds are sweet and strong, like the
fragrance of orchids." I Ching

There are two basic primal emotions Love and Fear.
The 2 polarities of Love, are Passion and Compassion.
When confronted with opportunities or challenges, we
can choose to react from Fear or respond from Love.

My biggest Ahh-Ha recently, has been to become the
Observer when moving into Fear, then choose Love.

My inner-Shadow's Chronic Worriess, has revealed
herself dancing and stomping the borders of insanity,
cycling around black holes within my consciousness.
Her frazzled states of imbalanced being are exhausting.

I am clear now, that she needs my Love rather than my
judgment and criticism. Examining the reasons why,
when, how and with whom I share Love, I evolve.

Realizing the first person I must Love unconditionally,
is myself, I can then be fully present for others, with
a receptive, open heart. It's easy to find fault in others,
to judge the way they dress, talk, eat, sleep, dance,
work and/or play. Radiating awareness of acceptance,
forgiveness, compassion and tolerance with ourselves,
sets the tone for transforming all relations with Love.

#5. Ethical Minister

2009-09-08T22:03:00.000-07:00

After sitting through a questionable Child Support
Determination with my Son, concerning his children,
I discover this quote, " The Hierophant represents the
universal principle of learning and teaching experienced
within Families and Life Challenges requiring us to
Trust our Faith. " Angeles Arrien

The Archetype of the Ethical Minister mirrors my
inner-Initiator, who demands that I learn and grow,
as well as my inner-Guidance. Feeling overwhelmed,
confused, distracted, disturbed, by outer relationships,
I turn within and consult my inner-Family. Experiencing
injustice happening around me, I examine my part in the
unfolding drama and try to remain "calm and assertive",
as the Dog Whisperer recommends for all "Pack Leaders".

This is a challenge when it involves loved ones, as we
feel their struggle and desire to relieve their pain.
My inner-Cougar Woman begins to pace frantically
when sensing a possible Danger /threat to her cubs.

Feeding on comfort food, I disassociates from Fear,
temporarily. Ultimately realizing I have no control
over the situation, I surrender my attachment to
desired outcomes, trust my faith in Divine Will.

#4. Vigilant Guardian / Emperor

2009-09-07T12:50:00.000-07:00

Clearing away Clutter in upstairs closet,
I discover a box of old Family Photographs,
including my Father's Navy Photos and my
Pioneering Grandfather's Rodeo Snapshots.

Both men were wise Vigilant Guardians,
devoted to their Wives, Children and Family.
I savored the time spent with my Father,
listening to stories of Naval Adventures
while I trimmed his hair /gave him a shave.

My Grandfather was adept at sneaking
us into Local Rodeos via Horseback.
Three younger brothers and I enjoyed
exploring behind shutes, listening to
Cowboys / Clowns bull-shit. Both
Patriarchs taught me innate values of
connecting / grounding Soul in Nature.

There are times in my life when my valiant
inner-Pioneer has inspired me to travel.
I met my Son's Father while traveling and
studying Art in Mexico. We walked close to
the edge of shifting education paradigms.
Exploring Maria Montessori's Philosophy
inspired me to create New Horizons
Children's House, a Farmschool for
Son's generation of Indigo Children.

Eldest Grandson is also from Indigo Wave
of evolving consciousness, very Warrior-like,
he can smell a lie, seeks the truth, is curious
about science, video game battles / soldiers.
Musical like his Dad, he also plays violin.

My youngest Grandson is a Crystal Child who
is very psychic/telepathic. He is sensitive with
animals, loves sports /the outdoors, is artistic
and musical on keyboard / guitar / percussion.

The past 8 years have required me to draw
upon my nurturing inner-Female's skills,
assisting in Father's passing and Mom's hip
surgery. My inner-Male is very protective
of my Grandchildren, enduring a Divorce.
Committed to their Spiritual / Educational
development, I am a strong, support system.

My current initiation, as Vigilant Guardian
is my pioneering work in Expressive Arts
Consulting / Education. Jump-starting
Career, I am setting a clear intention for
attracting the right Publisher for my Art/
Writing, and the right venues for Seminars.
I Am the Architect of my own Life Plan.

#3. Earth Mother

2009-09-06T20:18:00.000-07:00

A Family Garden is overflowing with nurturing
abundance. Earth Mother is alive and well here
in the great Central Valley of California. We fill our
bellies with Italian cucumbers, tomatoes, eggplant,
yellow squash, pumpkins, sunflowers, and herbs.

Aromatic tomato sauce and fresh basil, simmer
on a Sister-in-Law's stovetop, filling our senses.
Fried eggplant and antipasto grace her counters,
satisfying all taste buds. Grandchildren dart here
and there, hover as Hummingbirds seeking nectar.
They energize the hallowed space with overtones
of laughter, and random off key piano concertos.

I am reminded of the Changing Seasons of our
Mother Nature and realize how long it has been
since an abundance of Tiny Avatars have blessed
Family Environments housing disappointed Elders.

The vital Buzz reminds me of some of my favorite
Years, creating /directing a Montessori Farm
School for my Son's elementary education. His
eldest Son enters junior high this year, youngest is 8.

Midlife, is a challenging adventure, as it
presents an on-going struggle with gravity
and the hormonal imbalances of Menopause.
Relationships with Self, Environment, Others,
and Time, re-define, Health of our Body/Mind.

Mother Earth is also going through these changes.
I Pray Healing for her Heart. May her natural
resources, which she gifts freely, be replentished.

Self-discipline is a daily choice. Nurturing Self
with fresh Organic Diet, Exercise, Supplements,
Meditation, Prayer and Healthy Boundaries, takes
practice. Travel, Creative Expression, and Loving
Communication with Animals, Children and Elders,
feed the Soul. Community Service and Solitude in
Nature, revitalize Spirit, sense of Well Being.

We are beloved Gaia's channels and receptors.
Breath cultivates awareness of Inner Peace.

# 2. Sacred Priestess

2009-09-06T02:28:00.000-07:00

A Mystical Glow embraces Luna tonight,
as she rises full in Pisces, my birth sign.
My focus is upon the Mythic Archetype
of Sacred Priestess, alive within me.

Diana's heart beats in rhythm with mine,
as I breathe in her essence, exhale doubt.
Bridgit's heart beats in rhythm with mine,
as I breathe in her essence, exhale fear.
Gaia's heart beats in rhythm with mine,
as I express myself, and embody my talk.
Athena's heart beats in rhythm with mine,
as I stand for justice, and expose the truth.
Mary's heart beats in rhythms with mine,
as I embrace life with loving compassion.
Luna's heart beats in rhythm with mine,
as I trust my Intuition and sing my song.
Spider Woman's heart entrains with mine,
as we weave together in lucid Dreamtime.

I Pray Love, Light, Joy, Wisdom, Protection
for all Radiant Beings who dare to "Imagine"
Humanity, lovingly "Giving Peace a Chance",
honoring John Lennon and Yoko Ono's vision.
Namaste, Amen, Ah Ho, Con Espira, So It Is.

#1- Magical Sage / Alchemist

2009-09-04T20:46:00.000-07:00

Meditating on the qualities of the Magical Sage
/ Alchemist today, I practice juggling essential
Elements within my Life Design. Balancing work
/play, responsibility/recreation is not always easy.
Sometimes I focus too much on getting things done
and forget to enjoy the process or loosing myself
in the Creative Process, I neglect practical issues.

The Magic of being a Grandmother Sage is one
minute, I am making tacos with all the fixins for
my Son and Grandchildren, and next moment
we're blowing bubbles, exploring Animal Cards,
swinging on tire swing or shooting bows / arrows.

Today the Earth, Air, Water and Fire Dragons
captured our lucid imaginations as did the sparkly
translucent rocks, I discovered at the $ Store.

Like an Alchemist, I have learned to observe
my Dreams. Last Night, mine involved Rats.
This is the year of the Rat in Chinese Astrology.
I never would have guessed that Rat in China,
is considered a courageous prosperous sign.
They easily find solutions to problems and
can take good care of themselves and others.
So Rat this week is one of my sacred Allies.

# O. Soul Questar - Coyote/Fool/Child

2009-09-04T00:07:00.000-07:00

Focusing on my relationship with Soul Questar~
Archetype:Coyote/Fool /Child: I discover
areas of Life in which I still hold myself back by
Fearing vast Unknown. I fear not for myself, but
for loved ones, my Son, and my Grandchildren.
I fear for their mental, emotional, physical and
spiritual growth as Gaia endures healing process.

Divine Initiation offers me opportunity to shake
fearful paralysis and adapt a Beginner's Mind.
I can explore ways to thaw and move reluctant,
frozen, resistant energy back into natural flow.

Loosening stubborn perceptions of how things
"should be" unfolding, I can relax into trusting
a Higher Purpose, as Synchronicity refines.

Adapting an attitude of Playful Curiosity, I can
practice moving from fearful posture of Victim to
one of concerned, pro-active, Global Advocate.
I can choose to sit and watch TV or write my Blog.

As the Ice begins to melt around my Heart,
I can hear its Beat steadying my Strides,
invigorating my passion for Adventure.

What a Fool I am to allow my inner-Coyote
to trick me into distracting trance of submission
to inactivity, when I can be Dancing with Life.

Creative Soul Questing

2009-09-02T16:17:00.000-07:00

Creative Soul Questing

Inspired by Soul-fire, we are born from Elements:
Earth/Wood/Water/Fire/Metal-Crystal. Leaving
the safe Haven/Heaven of Divine Father/Mother,
we travel through illusions of Time/Space. Spirit
fills Soul for exploration in Body Temple /World.

To fulfill Earthly Divine Destiny, we're assisted
by Angels, Mentors, Animal Guides, Intuition,
Dreams, Synchronicity. We move through life
experiences that 'Lull us to Sleep', or awaken
Creative Soul-fires, inspiring transformation.

Each step on our Spiritual Path, offers us
opportunities to react to Life from Fear &
Judgment or respond w/ Love & Compassion.

Moving along, day to day, we come face to face
w/our Shadow & are challenged to transform all
denials, and addictions. This initiation tests our
faith / vision / strength /courage & endurance.

Authentic Creative expression is the Sword /
Light Saber that cut through false identities
& conditioned personas within us. It opens
doors for Souls to tell heroic tales of survival,
traversing the Wilderness of Consciousness.

Universal Mythic Archetypes: Moon/Sun,
Mother/Father, Fool/ World, provide a
common language allowing us to connect
across boundaries. Uniting human & divine,
Soul-fire ignites, invoking curiosity, as we
blaze new trails, evolving lucid Landscapes.

Focusing daily on sacred images w/prayer,
allows one to take a step back, to see a
greater unfolding reality. Becoming the
Observer, we witness the Sacred Dance
of the Union of Opposites, as a natural
evolving process of Soul development
that is best expresses itself in symbols.
The Yin/Yang symbol and the Mandala,
(Sanskrit for "magic circle") are enduring
examples of sacred symbolic language.

Observing the movements of the Stars,
Sun, Moon, Planetary Cycles and Seasons,
we recognize repeating cosmic patterns.
Observing human movements & choices,
we begin to recognize fear reactions
and responsive patterns of behavior.

Walking an authentic middle path, we
transcend the desire for extremes, drama
& adversity. Resolving Childish Need for
conflict and duality, we become Masters,
Co-Creators of our own personal Destiny.
As we resolve, we 'Return Full Circle'
to offer our wisdom to the World.

May these Creative Words and Images
serve as reflections of where you have
been, shine the Light on Tasks at Hand,
and provide Hope for the Future, all of
which exist in this Moment. Be Here Now.

Namaste & Blessings,
Sandra M. Shaw-Kovacs / Inner Peace Sage

Creative Soul Questing

#21. Planetary Partners / World

#20. Emissary of Truth / Aeon

#19. Sun Dancer

#18. Mystic Moon

#17. Guiding Light / Star of Hope

#16. Towering Vortex / Tower

#15. Lord Pan / Devil

#14. Visionary Artisans / Temperance

#13. Wounded Healer / Chiron

#12. Susceptible Addict

#11. Trial by Fire / Strength / Lust

#10. Spinning Wheel

#9. Holy Initiate / Hermit

#8. Divine Adjustment

#7. Transcendent Vehicles / Chariot

#6. Choices in Love

#5. Ethical Minister

#4. Vigilant Guardian / Emperor

#3. Earth Mother

# 2. Sacred Priestess

#1- Magical Sage / Alchemist

# O. Soul Questar - Coyote/Fool/Child

Creative Soul Questing

Creative Soul Questing

Wednesday, September 2, 2009